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Shawn Carney's avatar

Those walls are losses in a sense and each loss reshapes us and the world around us. It turns what we’ve taken for granted into something sharp and undeniable. When we lose something we begin to see its true shape. Absence feels at first like a hollow ache or a gaping void, depending on the loss. In that emptiness, we start to understand what mattered. Loss doesn’t just take, it reveals. Like the frame around a painting, it sets the edges that make the picture clear.

What limits us often shows us what we value. A broken arm reminds us of the simple joy of reaching out, while a broken heart teaches us the depth of love we’re capable of. The walls we push against, the obstacles and boundaries we face, define what we’re willing to fight for. Losing something doesn’t just highlight its absence; it reminds us of what’s worth holding onto, what’s worth rebuilding.

Loss isn’t just an ending, it’s a way of learning to see differently. It strips away the blur of comfort and routine, forcing us to focus on what we truly need, what we truly want. In that negative space, we don’t just find grief; we find clarity, and with it, the chance to fill what’s missing with something meaningful.

Thank you for this article. It was meaningful.

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Summer Koester's avatar

This is a stunning, SO true response. Beautiful and beautifully put. No notes.

The revealing reminded me of how the root of apocalypse means "to reveal."

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Jenn Schuessler's avatar

I love these existential, philosophical pontifications! Yes, be like water, but water alone, without boundaries or walls, is just water. A river is defined by the earth it cuts, that then holds it.

I could ponder this all day!

Thanks for starting my day on the right path!

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Summer Koester's avatar

Oooh I like the river analogy! Yeah, and the river cutting through earth can be uncomfortable, even violent.

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Calliope Confides's avatar

Dang Summer. You are on fire 🔥you are one hell of a storyteller and thought provoker- with bite. You rock. It won’t be long before you can quit that job.

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Summer Koester's avatar

From your mouth (fingers?) to God (Goddess'/Spirit's?) ears (or insert other sensorial body part)! And thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

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CG Karas's avatar

Saturn just turned direct in Pisces. Water and Limits

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Summer Koester's avatar

Well how's that for a coinkidink? or maybe not? thank you <3

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davwundrbrrd's avatar

Interesting, thanks! The idea of "sacred rage" reminds me of old Buddhist art where the holy figures have an aura of flames... have always been very curious about this. Maybe a full recognition of the things we wish to fight against-- or differentiate ourselves from-- is a fundamental part of becoming fully realized.

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Summer Koester's avatar

100%!!!!

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Holly Starley's avatar

I love this depiction of how we can allow events—both public and personal—to shape us into who we want to become. Thanks, Summer! May our rage keep us warm and continue to refine us!

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Summer Koester's avatar

Right? Thank you, Holly. I'm trying to reframe my anger/disgust/grief etc. as something positive :)

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Gary Spangler's avatar

That was a full mouthful, Summer. My take is for me to keep chewing after your essay! For some reason, reading of boundaries and walls, Pink Floyd’s “Another Brick In The Wall” came to mind.

No dark sarcasm in the classroom Hey, teacher, leave the kids alone

An entreaty for having no (government imposed) walls? Or a rejection of being excluded from the process of where walls have any value, or what constitutes a wall. The Montessori classrooms popular some time ago versus trad, regimented public education?

“Another Brick In The Wall” op cit.

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Summer Koester's avatar

Precisely, case in point! Could Pink Floyd have crafted such a brilliant song + album if they hadn't experienced those "walls"?

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Gary Spangler's avatar

That’s what my search of the song suggested. Teachers were to mold the minds and thinking of their pupils. To be bricks in the wall. Interchangeable parts if you will. Students did in fact rebel over this mindless “education.”

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Summer Koester's avatar

Yes. Back in the day, teachers were seen as vessels full of knowledge who were supposed to pour our knowledge into the brains of our students. Gratefully, the dominant pedagogy has changed and now teachers are being taught how to teach students how to think, not the other way around. Unless you're in certain states/school districts where critical thinking is still considered a threat, of course ;-)

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Gary Spangler's avatar

Agreed. Red states are trying to flee the truth. An old saying, “Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free” must be very frightening to the un-truthers.

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Sandolore Sykes's avatar

This post kind of freaked me out, it’s like you jumped out of my closet, having spied on everything I am hammering at in my current fiction piece. Thank you for your concise clarity!

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Summer Koester's avatar

Hahaha! And fiction parallels life! Thank you for this comment, I love it!

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Kelly Thompson TNWWY's avatar

Love it @Summer! Subscribed.

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Summer Koester's avatar

Yay!!!!! Thank you, Kelly!

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Amy Chin's avatar

Motherhood formed a hard edge for me for sure, one that I think I will always be working on. Grief is forming one now - I don’t know if I will like it or have a lot of say in how it forms. Formidable challenges were something I used to gravitate towards when I was younger, knowing I would be stronger and better on the other side. I think that could still be a little true, but I am also wise enough to know that plenty of challenges will find me and I don’t need to necessarily seek them out anymore.

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Summer Koester's avatar

I relate to this one million per cent. I had to take a deep breath when you said "Motherhood formed a hard edge for me for sure, one that I think I will always be working on" and "grief is forming one now," one you won't have a lot of say in how it forms. Because I feel that so hard. And yes, seeking out challenges in youth to harden me, for sure. And now I want to be soft, but I find myself losing softness and experiencing more rage. Although I guess that makes me stronger. Like you said, the challenges find us now. I dream of a life with much less drama, but drama finds me. I thought it was just a me thing, but I guess we share that.

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Bryce Tolpen's avatar

I think what we like to call creation -- ours or even God's -- starts with reaction. God reacts to chaos in Genesis 1, and I bawled from the bright lights (and the Colic) during my own genesis. (I'm glad that you don't remember the "poi-pose" episode; I'm even more glad that I don't remember the Colic.) Maybe counter-dependency sets in only if I merely react, or if I stay in reaction mode (possibly becoming what I hate). Creativity could be the third dimension where I move out of binary thinking. Anyway, thanks for getting me thinking!

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Summer Koester's avatar

I like your take! For me, creativity is making meaning of the chaos. I guess creativity IS the reaction? IDK? help me think this through haha

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Bryce Tolpen's avatar

I like that: creativity doesn't just start with reaction. It is reaction. (But my own thesis breaks down: I love to create chaos!)

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Summer Koester's avatar

Hahahaha sometimes I wonder if I do too!

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Claire Drouault's avatar

"Every wall we bump against is an opportunity to harden ourselves, to know ourselves, and to create our shape." I like this but prefer to replace the word "create" with "discover."

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Summer Koester's avatar

I like that better, too. Discover our shapes, yes!

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Mike M. in the PNW's avatar

I love you too.

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Summer Koester's avatar

haha awwwww

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Shelley Durga Karpaty's avatar

I love this, Summer. Still finding my poi-pus here! Xx

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Summer Koester's avatar

Haha! thanks, Shelley <3 but I feel like you might already have found it ;-)

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Shelley Durga Karpaty's avatar

Thanks for believing in me! Xx

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Lizzie Langston's avatar

Struggle has totally showed me who I am. Specifically the worst type of struggle: abuse, and wrong treatment. Looking back, it is these that gratefully brought back my connection to anger, and sacred rage, when my micro culture had completely suppressed it

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Summer Koester's avatar

Exactly. I'm really sorry for everything you went through. Wishing you healing xo

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Lizzie Langston's avatar

Loved Dr Wendy’s article - I just subscribed. Amazing. Loved!

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Summer Koester's avatar

so rad! I love when good people find good people!

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