Love this and can’t wait to read your memoir! I have so appreciated your Substack these past few months. I trust you will keep up the good work, deviance and all!!
I always wanted to believe magic was real, and now it’s everywhere. Abundance, community (love that) and kindness over niceness, true generosity, all vibrations I’m dialing in for 2025. I broke so many patterns last year, and I fully and unabashedly identify as a spiritualist, this life is hard but I am so soft, I can mold around the edges and flow like water, I can dissolve the ego self and dance as particles in the air, I can create a friction that burns through any suffering, and I can ground my roots down so deep and so thoroughly my that there isn’t a leaf alive that doesn’t have the pulse of me in it. That’s what I want to dial in for 2025. Here’s to the rising and the transformation. So glad I found you and your brilliance. 💛
Love this! Having the courage to find and claim your authentic way is THE path to magic!
On another note, do you know the work of Gabor Maté, which includes The Myth of Normal (i.e., the idea that anxiety, depression, etc. are normal responses to trying to fit in to a fundamentally sick society)?
Pfffffff ... wow, breathing through that post. Just woke up to it - and a note from another woman who likely needed your post - all of us, at this exact moment. Yup. MAGIC. Turns out it's real after all. And TRUST? Oh 'girl', we must. I was sitting here, drifting / sorting thoughts along the same lines. Hence the "gut punch" (in a good way) ;). Love ya for it. Oh! Before I go here's a literary reference for ya: (pardon my Russian misspelling; I don't want to lose the STACK to double-check. Will repost the exact quote, translation, pub date etc. in a bit). Stickler for accuracy! Hey now, a life in books did that to me - I can't help it (hee hee). Bless ya, Summa.
first, you at 16--i spy her already soaking up the world, recalibrating it through her wild, feral lens, and saying to her future self "one day you will impact others in ways you cannot foresee." and you do (i'm grateful for you)! we can't know the future...we (or at least i) do trust the foggy muddled path as unfolds...potholes, dog poop, lush stretches of meadow and all. looking forward to the year ahead with you AND pre-ordering your memoir when it is available.
first, you at 16--i spy her already soaking up the world, recalibrating it through her wild, feral lens, and saying to her future self "one day you will impact others in ways you cannot foresee." and you do (i'm grateful for you)! we can't know the future...we (or at least i) do trust the foggy muddled path as unfolds...potholes, dog poop, lush stretches of meadow and all. looking forward to the year ahead with you AND pre-ordering your memoir when it is available.
Thanks so much, Anne. I never thought about how I’d fit in the world and only physically how others would perceive me, never considering myself an authority on anything or it really worth listening to. Maybe that’s just from growing up in patriarchy. And always trying to listen to others. Still not quite sure of how I situate in space and time, other than to continue making connections, learning and listening to the wisdom on here — for example, from people like you. 💖
though it has taken me well into my adulthood to fall into my wildness and loosen/cut (they still want to remain attached-ha!) the patriarchal strings, it is through these connections with others that i find the courage and love to continue on this journey of finding my unique voice. what a gift we are to each other in this shapeshifting world of cracks and monsters. big hugs to you as we journey on.
Yes... Some would say why?, and that's an honest question... But I especially like the ones that say why not?, and find their own answer! Seeking to be happy in my own...
I love MAGIC and the idea of letting the Universe bring you what you need. In fact, I just practiced this today at a birth and it worked out exactly as I wanted it to, better than I could have planned if I tried to control everything. Excited for the memoir drops, Summer!!
Thank you, Julie and what what what did you tell me you were a midwife or a Doula? I love that! My daughter‘s birth was straight up magic as well. Manifesting really does work.
Fitting in? I like to hang around the sidelines until I hear something that moves or strikes me - like The Feral Stack - then jump in for a while and see if it’s worth the bumps & bruises. Peace, A Paid Subscriber
The tales yet to be told…! When you hit the 7-0h as I will in 2025, the memories mix and match for you, so I might ask self “is that a ‘true’ memory, a picture my mother kept in her picture books, or a repeating psychic adventure that surfaces
when the convo glances off my mind archive?” When negative memories arise, and I do own a significant collection, I have learned from some wise mentors (ie. David Hawkins) to meet the dualistic disturbance
face to face 1) recognize it 2) Let It Go 3) keep letting go. I fill my days with reading & learning and family/household service, and meditation, which is possible because my children are grown adults. And the rest of the world is like a movie that stops and starts, yet I do watch, oh and awww….
Love this and can’t wait to read your memoir! I have so appreciated your Substack these past few months. I trust you will keep up the good work, deviance and all!!
Awesome so good to hear thank you! 🙏
I always wanted to believe magic was real, and now it’s everywhere. Abundance, community (love that) and kindness over niceness, true generosity, all vibrations I’m dialing in for 2025. I broke so many patterns last year, and I fully and unabashedly identify as a spiritualist, this life is hard but I am so soft, I can mold around the edges and flow like water, I can dissolve the ego self and dance as particles in the air, I can create a friction that burns through any suffering, and I can ground my roots down so deep and so thoroughly my that there isn’t a leaf alive that doesn’t have the pulse of me in it. That’s what I want to dial in for 2025. Here’s to the rising and the transformation. So glad I found you and your brilliance. 💛
Damn girl that’s poetry. I’m gonna take some of that into 2025 too. Thank you, Amy!
Awe, you’re welcome! Thank you. You inspired me.
Love this! Having the courage to find and claim your authentic way is THE path to magic!
On another note, do you know the work of Gabor Maté, which includes The Myth of Normal (i.e., the idea that anxiety, depression, etc. are normal responses to trying to fit in to a fundamentally sick society)?
I don’t, but now I need to!
Yes, highly recommended!
My word— astonishingly— is quiet. To simplify. To carry an inner stillness. “To go placidly amid the noise and haste…”
Yes queen. Quiet in all the ways.
So on board with this, Bailey! The Tao is Silent is a good read along these very lines; it’s by Raymond Smullyan.
Ooh I’ll find it. Thank you <3
Pfffffff ... wow, breathing through that post. Just woke up to it - and a note from another woman who likely needed your post - all of us, at this exact moment. Yup. MAGIC. Turns out it's real after all. And TRUST? Oh 'girl', we must. I was sitting here, drifting / sorting thoughts along the same lines. Hence the "gut punch" (in a good way) ;). Love ya for it. Oh! Before I go here's a literary reference for ya: (pardon my Russian misspelling; I don't want to lose the STACK to double-check. Will repost the exact quote, translation, pub date etc. in a bit). Stickler for accuracy! Hey now, a life in books did that to me - I can't help it (hee hee). Bless ya, Summa.
"Tolchock to ma Grooby"!
- A Clockwork Orange
A PUNCH TO MY GUTS.
I love going to bed reading comments from you on here, Charity! 💕
I believe we all need connection and use of our feral senses. Knowing it and owning it both benefit from your posts, Summer.
Thanks so much, Gary. Yes, I agree!
first, you at 16--i spy her already soaking up the world, recalibrating it through her wild, feral lens, and saying to her future self "one day you will impact others in ways you cannot foresee." and you do (i'm grateful for you)! we can't know the future...we (or at least i) do trust the foggy muddled path as unfolds...potholes, dog poop, lush stretches of meadow and all. looking forward to the year ahead with you AND pre-ordering your memoir when it is available.
first, you at 16--i spy her already soaking up the world, recalibrating it through her wild, feral lens, and saying to her future self "one day you will impact others in ways you cannot foresee." and you do (i'm grateful for you)! we can't know the future...we (or at least i) do trust the foggy muddled path as unfolds...potholes, dog poop, lush stretches of meadow and all. looking forward to the year ahead with you AND pre-ordering your memoir when it is available.
Thanks so much, Anne. I never thought about how I’d fit in the world and only physically how others would perceive me, never considering myself an authority on anything or it really worth listening to. Maybe that’s just from growing up in patriarchy. And always trying to listen to others. Still not quite sure of how I situate in space and time, other than to continue making connections, learning and listening to the wisdom on here — for example, from people like you. 💖
though it has taken me well into my adulthood to fall into my wildness and loosen/cut (they still want to remain attached-ha!) the patriarchal strings, it is through these connections with others that i find the courage and love to continue on this journey of finding my unique voice. what a gift we are to each other in this shapeshifting world of cracks and monsters. big hugs to you as we journey on.
the connections - yes! love them. the connections make us stronger and resilient.
Yes... Some would say why?, and that's an honest question... But I especially like the ones that say why not?, and find their own answer! Seeking to be happy in my own...
I love that your words are questions and WHY is always my favorite question , and then you upleveled it!
The leather jacket! <3
I was born a deviant and it took so long to begin to be proud of it. Maybe I'll have a PRIDE year.
Girl that sounds like the beginning of a poem. Would love to hear the rest sometime. But no presh! Sending love.
Love this. I always say your only job is to live your life to the fullest. As yourself.
Yes! Thank you!
Fist pump! Hell to the yes.
YES, SISTER!
You are speaking my language 🙌🏼
Yay!
I love MAGIC and the idea of letting the Universe bring you what you need. In fact, I just practiced this today at a birth and it worked out exactly as I wanted it to, better than I could have planned if I tried to control everything. Excited for the memoir drops, Summer!!
Thank you, Julie and what what what did you tell me you were a midwife or a Doula? I love that! My daughter‘s birth was straight up magic as well. Manifesting really does work.
Fitting in? I like to hang around the sidelines until I hear something that moves or strikes me - like The Feral Stack - then jump in for a while and see if it’s worth the bumps & bruises. Peace, A Paid Subscriber
Ouch, that sounds painful
The tales yet to be told…! When you hit the 7-0h as I will in 2025, the memories mix and match for you, so I might ask self “is that a ‘true’ memory, a picture my mother kept in her picture books, or a repeating psychic adventure that surfaces
when the convo glances off my mind archive?” When negative memories arise, and I do own a significant collection, I have learned from some wise mentors (ie. David Hawkins) to meet the dualistic disturbance
face to face 1) recognize it 2) Let It Go 3) keep letting go. I fill my days with reading & learning and family/household service, and meditation, which is possible because my children are grown adults. And the rest of the world is like a movie that stops and starts, yet I do watch, oh and awww….
That sounds quite nice. To be in that time of life where you can rewatch the reel from - holy cow - seven decades of life!